I spent the weekend hiking in the countryside with two of my favourite girls. When we walked on duckboards and followed the tracks of a fox or a rabbit in the snow it was so quiet. Only snow was scrunching under our feet. I felt blessed to sit by the fire with them the cold forest around us. Now that I’ve returned home I still feel fortunate.

During past year I have seen and experienced my frailty probably clearer than ever before. But in the midst of all the pain I have also felt love and hope more greater than during the years before. It is strange how total opposites, anxiety and faith, can exist together. Somehow at the same time it makes sense too. This January I won’t be making new year resolutions. Even if hardships won’t instantly disappear when I plan or wish to, I know that I can trustfully think about the future what ever it holds for me. And on moments when I’m not able to have that confidence, I know it’s allright. There’s a great plan made for my life, better than my eyes can see at the moment. There is harmony to be found in confusion.

I have found it important to know and I hope You know it too as we head to the New Year 2012.

Whoa, there’s a choir upon the wind

Singing old familiar hymns

And my ears they’re playing tricks on me

I can almost hear harmony 

-The Civil Wars

Saara